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Slow Is Not Behind

(This is my latest Substack article. Catharsis, Finding meaning, and Encouragement: the purpose of my writing)

No one signs up for this.

I don’t know a single person who would willingly choose to be sick for a long season, no matter what kind of “sick” it is. We all want relief from suffering. We want the breakthrough. We want the story to turn as quick as possible.

But the kind of healing that lasts must go deep. If anything, chasing speed and quick fixes can destabilize it. Healing pace is not driven by urgency or panic.

Quick change rarely builds new habits or new ways of living. It doesn’t teach your body that it’s safe to slow down. It may bring relief for a moment, but it doesn’t rebuild the foundation underneath.

Sometimes, in the middle of a hard day, we wonder:

What am I doing wrong?
Is God not there?
Do I need a new doctor?
Maybe I just haven’t found the right supplement.

Slow healing isn’t doing nothing. It’s not ignoring wisdom or refusing help. It’s simply refusing to panic every time something feels off. It means you stop interpreting every hard day as proof that you are doing it wrong.

Healing is more like falling in love and staying in love. The beginning may feel electric, but what lasts is built in the ordinary days; in small adjustments, consistent choices, and trust over time. It’s also like building wealth. Quick wins don’t create stability; disciplined habits do.

In the same way, healing asks us to seek wisdom without chasing every shiny fix and then to trust the process one day at a time. The problem is, we’re wired to believe that fast equals better. But when something changes quickly, it often disappears just as fast. We’ve all seen it: quick money that disappears, an intense fling that fades, a new plan that feels like the answer until the next flare reminds you nothing underneath has changed.

The 2-Degree Concept

The other day, a friend shared something with me called the “2-Degree Concept.” Instead of chasing dramatic breakthroughs, the goal is small, steady shifts… two degrees at a time.

In therapy terms, it’s not about fixing everything overnight. It’s about building enough stability that when something goes wrong, you don’t experience a total collapse; just a slight deviation.

When you build slowly, your nervous system doesn’t spike as high. Your crashes don’t crash as low. You don’t relapse into despair. You don’t outsource your stability to the next supplement, doctor, or promise of a miracle fix.

For years, one flare (or bed-ridden day) meant:

This isn’t working. I’m broken. Let’s start over.

And starting over can feel good; a total dopamine hit:
A new protocol.
A new doctor.
A new supplement.

There’s something about the new that gives us fresh hope, because going slow feels so boring. It often feels like it’s not working.

We like quick.

But when healing is slow, and a harder day comes, the inner voice shifts.

It becomes:

Okay. This is just a small bump.
I can manage this.
Stay steady. Adjust.

It’s not sexy at all.

It’s slow healing at work.

And here’s the gift:

Slow healing reduces the swing between hope and despair

Being grounded and steady is underrated.

Let’s look at Sophie in five parts.

1. The High-Functioning Years

She wakes up early. The gym is a given.
Stacks her schedule with no margin.
Answers emails and listens to podcasts while downing her breakfast.
Measures success in a completed checklist.

She feels valuable because she performs.
Because she accomplishes.
Because she never drops the ball.

She doesn’t just like being capable; she needs it.

2. The Breakdown (A Slow Drip)

The gut flares.

The nervous system stays on high-alert.

Her body won’t let her push through.

The fatigue doesn’t lift.
Sleep stops cooperating.
The brain fog and weakness make even simple things hard.

Discipline can’t save her.

Instead of being patient, she becomes a patient.

Suddenly she is no longer high functioning 
she is just… functioning.
Barely, some days.

The body is the last place we expect rebellion.
But when it does rebel, it is a wake-up call you cannot ignore.

3. The Identity Crisis

Who is Sophie if she:

Can’t power through?
Can’t multitask?
Can’t dominate her to-do list?
Has to nap?
Has to say no?

This is where humility enters. When performance left, she met the parts of herself she had neglected. 

And she began to wonder if God had been waiting there for her all along.

4. The Paradigm Shift

Not because she understood it or could explain it. But because fighting it was exhausting.

Not “everything happens for a reason.”

That doesn’t help at 11am when you must lie down.

But something for Sophie shifted.

Slower mornings.
Short, honest conversations with God.

Looking up at the sky instead of down at a checklist.
Walking without tracking steps. 
Noticing a bird she’s never seen before.

In the quiet, she began to notice God not as a fixer but as a steady presence.

5. The Learning to Be Steady

She didn’t lose her drive. She just stopped using it to control the outcome.

Sophie used to chase 10’s; Now, her life lives in the 6’s on a good day. And that is OK.

She celebrates:

Waking up and being okay enough to walk.
Savoring each bite of food.
Thinking clearly and maybe writing something.
Making something special for her hubby. Sleeping through the night.
Enjoying a treat with her daughter instead of declining it.
Sending the encouraging email even if it isn’t perfect.
Laughing with her husband at the dog’s ridiculous antics.
Trying a new recipe and not caring if it’s perfect.
Texting a friend just to say hi.. without an agenda.
Sitting in the quiet without needing to fill it.
Reading a paragraph and actually remembering it.
Driving without rehearsing tomorrow in her head.
Answering a question without over-explaining.
Sitting on the floor with her daughter just because.
Browsing Amazon together when she’s too tired to shop. Leaving something undone and sleeping anyway.
Laughing at something small and not analyzing why.

Steady doesn’t trend.
There’s no adrenaline rush.
It doesn’t look impressive online.

But steady changes everything.

When the body only knows chaos, it will stay in chaos even when you try to rest. The steady is what retrains, restores, and refreshes.

It’s underrated, and maybe that’s the point.

Maybe the ordinary, grounded, sometimes boring 4–6 (vs. 10) day is where the real strength lives.

At least now, for Sophie.

(This is a post I wrote for Substack. I decided to write it in 3rd person as a way to look at myself from the outside. Very cathartic).

It’s time! So, here is my first one. I plan to start reflecting through my writing. It’s a cathartic, clarifying tool that has always proven successful for my sanity.

From High-Functioning to Rebuilding

What happens when competence meets chronic instability…. and healing becomes the new ambition.

by:

STEPHANIE HAY

Beginnings are hard.

Not because I don’t have something to say, but because I have lived so much of it quietly.

For the past few years, I’ve been rebuilding my health in the background of real life: teaching, mothering, researching, praying, walking through fatigue, gut instability, and the strange shift from once high-functioning to the recent see-saw of functioning and not at all.

I didn’t set out to become someone who writes about healing. I set out to feel steady again. Not exactly a lofty goal for a Type A woman like me, but when you’ve been traveling a debilitating health road, your ambitions shrink. You become grateful for the smallest, most ordinary blessings (like a single blooming sunflower sitting upon your countertop)

Somewhere along the way, I realized I wasn’t just restoring my body; I was learning how to think differently about resilience, nourishment, faith, and the nervous system. And a new motivation began to take shape: pay it forward. Help someone else feel less alone.

So why this, and why now?

Because I’m no longer in crisis mode. I’ve gathered data: oodles of personal data (unfortunately), and scientific data thanks to a relentlessly curious mind. Healing isn’t loud, and it’s rarely linear. It doesn’t announce itself with a dramatic finish line.

And I have come to believe there are women like me who are competent, capable, and faith-anchored, and who are quietly trying to feel normal again. This is the space where science and story meet.

Here, we will talk about:

· Gut-brain healing

· Metabolic restoration

· Nervous system retraining

· What “rebuilding” actually looks like

· How high-functioning women learn to trust their bodies again

Grounded in research, I anchor everything in faith because sometimes faith is what gets you to wake up and live another day, pain and all.

This is real time. It isn’t finished. But maybe it isn’t supposed to be. I see the sunrise pushing through the clouds, slowly.

You won’t find quick fixes here. I bought into every snake oil that has ever been sold because when you’re desperate, you’ll try anything. That is not, and never will be, my motive. My deepest desire is to inform, encourage, and relate.

It will be thoughtful.
Measured.
Honest.

I plan to publish once a week; sometimes personal narrative, sometimes research discussions, and often a blend of both.

This is a beginning. I have no idea what will come of it, but it feels like a calling I can no longer ignore.

If you’re here because you’re rebuilding–physically, emotionally, or spiritually–you’re in the right place.

Steph