TWO MONTHS!! She was born on Thanksgiving, exactly two months ago. It is hard to believe that she has been in my life for that long…it does go fast. How do you savor each moment, however?
I have often been asked, “How does it feel to be a mom?”; or “How are you doing?” To be honest, it’s a fog! You don’t have time to assess, introspectively. How am I doing?? hmmmm. How am I doing??? How am I doing? How am I doing?
Well…
HOW: That’s right! HOW does this work? What day is it? What time was her last feeding?
AM: I don’t have an AM. My “being” is not about ME anymore; That is actually quite freeing and satisfying. I’m tired of me anyway.
I…I am no longer I, but I do find that I must take care of “I” or I will not be around for HER.
DOING…. My doings are all about eating, sleeping, pooing, and burping. If I can, cleaning, showering and blogging.
So, “How am I doing?” I’ll get back to you in the next minute since it constantly changes.
One thing is secure: I LOVE THIS LITTLE GIRL MORE THAN I THOUGHT POSSIBLE. Looking up to celebrate her day was needed since it is so easy to get bogged down in the daily grind of … *see “DOING” above.
I love you Tatum. Thank you God for giving her to me. Please grant me wisdom in caring for her.
