The order of things. They seem to be confusing at the time. In fact, the way I would have had a relationship begin and journey through was completely different than what has occurred.
My sole concern for the past 6 years has been being the best mommy for Tatum. Now, I can only imagine if I was swept away in love with Doug 4 years ago. I would have had a hard time keeping myself away from Doug and I think my motherhood would have suffered. I also think Doug and I would not be together today.
But GOD… BUT GOD! But God had a different plan. He saved my heart and my excitement for after we would be married. Isn’t that so like God? We had to trust in the process and God’s plan. I knew from the first night I met Doug that he would be my husband. I knew that with my head, and my head never wavered! But, I wanted to FEEEEEEEL it in my heart. My heart was in love with him, but not the kind of love that you dream about…that Hollywood, butterfly love. If that would have happened in the beginning, I’m sure it would have sabotaged US or at least the quality of our foundation. However, we have spent the past 4 years building a STRONG friendship.
Getting married has solidified my feelings and have given me those butterflies! God is so good. He knew what he was doing. And the serendipity? Tatum gets the best daddy in the whole world PLUS she gets modeled a purely loving picture of family and parents.
It never gets old. He has spoiled me with letters and cards for four years.
He even wrote me the sweetest letter last night. (I covered a few lines: *WINK*)
We now get to really flirt with texts
And of course, how could I not stop staring at my rings??
The rings just symbolize a circle that has no end.
I love you Mr. Hay. Tatum, you have a wonderful new daddy, and God, you have perfect timing of ALL things.