Noel! Come and see what God has done!

to our home.

Doug was busy decorating the tree (our glorious tree), and Tatum plays. She STILL plays with all the fun accoutrements from our storage stash.

We have the music playing on the TV…all our favorite Christmas songs.

Tatum plays busily with the nativity set.

She set up the dining room table with all kinds of characters and used her IMAGINATION which is overflowing all the time.

This is our US part of the tree…it’s so memorable.

And an ODE to my youth.

After all the fun decorating we met for gratitude. Guess who joined us?

What a fun day. Decorating is probably more fun than celebrating! (much more than taking it all down..ha!

A healthy man wants many things but a sick man wants only one

Me. Yep. For a long time. We take our health for granted.

2024 a year of trying to figure all this out.

Regurgitation, Nausea, Wooziness began. Now, when I say “woozy” I don’t mean your general fatigue or tiredness. No, this is if someone took a sedation gun and shot me between the eyes. I’m not able to even think or keep my eyes open…it’s almost a “dizziness” that doesn’t subside with even lying down.

Before this, it was YEARS of gut issues from dysbiosis (IBS), SIBO, colitis, gastritis, and GERD. Only to go completely DOWNHILL in the year 2024.

Tatum left PVCP to be homeschooled; Doug sacrificed “US” as a couple; Our family cancelled many plans last minute; No vacations, eating out, quick trips; over $50K in bills from supplements to tests to Dr. appts to promises of better health. What a year. But was it? I DID get closer to JESUS. I DID minimize my activities. I DID find joy in the small things like staring out the window and watching birds.

When you’re sick, you’ll buy or fall for anything because all you want is ONE THING: GET BACK TO HEALTH..whatever that means. For me, it meant functioning through the day without feeling like I had to go to bed. (and it wasn’t from depression) I just truly couldn’t walk or eat.

Here are all the tests I had done:

  1. Feb 2024: Bravo Ph and endoscopy (Demister score: 15) Reflux diagnosed
  2. Feb 2024: Esophogram: small hiatal hernia with questionable findings for low-grade reflux esophagitis. 
  3. March Blood test showed HIGH MCV (anemia, high cortisol, Low fasting glucose)
  4. March: HIDA SCAN: Gall Bladder showed normal
  5. April: Precision Point food test: RED: Egg Albumin, almond, Orange Peach, English Walnut, Kidney Bean, Mustard, Navy Bean, Plum , Soybean,  String Bean, Tomato, Tuna
  6. May: Anemic (Ferritin and Vitamin C low)
  7. August: Blood test showed Eosinophils (ALLERGY): 1.7 (now I see what the rising level meant)
  8. Sept: Blood test showed Elevated WBC, MCV, Eosinophils. .9 (went down to .8 in late Sept)
  9. September: CT Scan showed constipation abdomen with contrast
  10. September: 3 day parasite gut test: dysbiosis but mostly normal
  11. October: Gastric Emptying: NORMAL (2 hours 100%)
  12. November: Esophogram: NORMAL
  13. November: CT Scan with contrast of chest…NORMAL
  14. November: Manometry: Both sphincters are NORMAL 
  15. November: Bravo PH 96 hour: Demister score: 10…NO REFLUX!!!!
  16. November: Endoscopy: 3 biopsies of the esophagus.: I had 15 on the left side of esophagus.

A biopsy showing 10 eosinophils per high power field (HPF) is generally considered normal and would not be diagnostic for esophagitis, particularly eosinophilic esophagitis (EoE), which requires a significantly higher count (typically 15 or more eosinophils per HPF) to confirm a diagnosis; therefore, a count of 10 eosinophils would not support a diagnosis of esophagitis. 

DIAGNOSIS: EOE: Eosinophil Esophagitis

Dr. Shaheen has prescribed budesonide oral for 12 weeks. (an oral steroid)

My main symptoms: Nausea and regurgitation AND a feeling of being drunk/hungover. I mean REALLY sedated/hungover, and I have cut out most everything. It is so frustrating to not know what is causing this. The joy of eating has gone out the window because I feel awful after I eat, and again, I don’t know what is “good” and “bad” for me.

Could it be a histamine release? I have so many more questions, and I feel AWFUL that I have become so self-absorbed. I truly take one minute at a time, and I try to find the joy in my day. If it wasn’t for my family, I probably would just be in bed, but I need to be a strong girl and show overcoming.

Jesus, I know you are WITH ME ALWAYS. I know you see all of this, and that you have a plan for me and my family. Maybe you could give me a break in 2025, and get me on the path to better health. I have a long list of what I miss, and the first thing is being “out” with my husband and CHURCH. I also miss family outings / experiences. Sorry for focusing on these things.

In the meantime, I have found solace in worship music videos. The comments on these videos are life-giving. Thank you for what you are doing in people’s lives. Please give us more insight into this as the year ends.

I love you, Father. I truly love you.

Building strength and resilience

I wish I could just hire a trainer for Tatum to build strength and resilience inside.

You see, yes, she is getting stronger in some ways. At the gym, she’s lifting weights now with Emma, her trainer.

Go TOT!


This is great for her building her toughness and feeling confident in her own skin. It’s also good for her muscle-wise as she grows into a young woman.

BUT…what will grow her resilience of character and strength when things might get hard?
Well, one word.

FAILURE

Ok, maybe two
DISAPPOINTMENT.

EEEEEKK…as a Mom, I HATE to see this for her. I want to whisk her up and solve all of her problems, soothing the pain.

But, what will this accomplish? It will make ME feel better as if I’m “fixing” a problem, and OH, it will make her FEEL better in that moment. But, is that right?
I can soothe her with empathy and kindness as she goes through a storm. Kind of like God does for us. He gives us an UMBRELLA, but the rain still falls.

Today, she cried for hours. Why? Because ALL OF THAT HARD WORK she put in for her book that she is writing has been erased. Yep. GONE. ZIP. ZILCH. KAPUT! She didn’t save her work. Lesson learned.

I couldn’t fix it, nor should I fix it. But OH IS IT HARD!! I have been through that countless times with articles, papers, research… you name it. But, I tried to assure her:
The next time you write it out, it will be even better! I promise. It didn’t help in the short run, but I promise she’ll see it in the long run.

In the meantime, she’s on a bike ride right now brainstorming.

I love you, Tot. Don’t give up. Keep building your resilience. I’m here to cushion the landing.

She lit the candle at SBC!

And sang on Sunday

Before church, she tried on her red display…you like!?

Coopy does too!

And…she’s off!

A small group of young ladies this week.

Tatum lit the candle and spoke from John 14:27 about PEACE

 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”

All the lovely choir with Ms. Rene.

Lighting up our lives!!

The Hay house…Doug always makes it look so beautiful. And this year he did not disappoint.

BOOM!
And it is so. God makes our lives LIGHT and hopefully our home can reflect this character.

Girlfriends. They are so special.

Our small group got together (girls only) on Sunday. I’m so grateful I got to go.

It’s not often you meet girls you want to be with as LIFERS.

So thankful for our small group.

xxoo