Today, I put in the Google box: “Why does my baby fuss so much?” Yesterday, it was, “What are those red bumps on my baby’s face?” Also, “Why does my baby not like her baby carrier?” C’mon Google! Aren’t you supposed to have all the answers? Apparently not. I’m having one of those days where I have more questions than answers.
On Saturday, I ventured to Home Depot to explore the faucets and shower heads. Mine are corroded beyond recognition, and therefore are lacking any utility! So, I figured this would be a great opportunity to try out my Baby Bjorn. While in the faucet aisle, the kind gentleman frowned as I walked down with a screaming Tatum. She doth protest too much! We walked out of the store, and I thought…no! I shall not be denied. She eventually fell asleep and I felt victorious.
Fast forward to today…I received the Mei Tei Hands Free in the mail and had to try it! She may find this one more comfortable. No such luck. Upon a few minutes of singing and attempted sooting, she doth protest at ear piercing level. WHY!? I took it personally like she didn’t want to nestle next to my chest. I removed the carrier and held her as she quieted down. This girl does not like restriction! I feel so defeated. Dreams of carrying her around the world…POOF. HELP! Are there lessons for these things?
Tater has been smacking! My dear late grandma used to smack her lips, and I would often find that so annoying! And now….when Tatum does this I think, “Holy moly, she’s trying to kiss me!” Hee! I would like to think that is what she is doing.
She just had her 2-month checkup, and frightfully, had to experience 4 vaccines. Her fussiness has quadrupled, and her red face has reddened. Geez…is that necessary? I sure hate having to see her experience this; but leaving the Dr. that day, she looked pretty darn peaceful. Janette gave me the coolest little chair! Tatum loves to be upright, so I gave it for a spin yesterday. She wailed with laughter!
TWO MONTHS!! She was born on Thanksgiving, exactly two months ago. It is hard to believe that she has been in my life for that long…it does go fast. How do you savor each moment, however?
I have often been asked, “How does it feel to be a mom?”; or “How are you doing?” To be honest, it’s a fog! You don’t have time to assess, introspectively. How am I doing?? hmmmm. How am I doing??? How am I doing? How am I doing?
HOW: That’s right! HOW does this work? What day is it? What time was her last feeding?
AM: I don’t have an AM. My “being” is not about ME anymore; That is actually quite freeing and satisfying. I’m tired of me anyway.
I…I am no longer I, but I do find that I must take care of “I” or I will not be around for HER.
DOING…. My doings are all about eating, sleeping, pooing, and burping. If I can, cleaning, showering and blogging.
So, “How am I doing?” I’ll get back to you in the next minute since it constantly changes.
One thing is secure: I LOVE THIS LITTLE GIRL MORE THAN I THOUGHT POSSIBLE. Looking up to celebrate her day was needed since it is so easy to get bogged down in the daily grind of … *see “DOING” above.
I love you Tatum. Thank you God for giving her to me. Please grant me wisdom in caring for her.
Recently, while perusing HOUZZ, the coolest design website besides my cousin’s design blog, I was inspired by the alphabet wall for the baby’s room. I just haven’t known what to do to decorate her already boring white space, so I’ve been in research mode. I came upon this design and realized I could do something similar! My dear mom bought wooden letters to paint white, and now we are designing each one.
The planning of the designs has been much more of a task than the actual painting process. I’m a “big picture” planner, and my mother is a “detailed” planner. She picked up a letter and just started to design it. Whereas I froze and said,”I have to see how the WHOLE thing will look before I can haphazardly pick up a letter and draw.” So it began.
We decided on 13 different designs repeated once to make 26! Now, the next step was the placement of what design goes where…
She came up with a key which looked similar to a scrabble board and off we went.
Today, I worked on the G and the U
We shall see! I’m enjoying the process, and hopefully Tatum’s wall will enjoy the letters!