The End or the Beginning?

Today was one of those days when you want to tie a bow on top of a large box. This year was chock full of incredible pain and abundant blessings. The box was huge. However, hindsight is 20/20, and as I reminisce about the total package, I can see that flowers always follow a storm. Yes, it’s the ‘ol silver lining surrounds every cloud theory.

January jaded and jostled; would I survive? Yes: New friends, new writing opportunities.. and  my first colonoscopy!

February: Relationship changes; new ones begin. hmmmm….Motherhood. Ponder that.

March: Moving on and forward. Classes, Studies, Cleaning and Refining. AIDA.

April: Writers unite and the Powerful Pen makes Sabrina a star.

May: Hurting hearts unable to help. Hope of new surroundings.

June, July: Renew Reflect Recharge

August 22nd: A Phone Call which changed my life.

September-October: Prepare Prepare…Prepare!

November: NCTE. Tatum is born on Thanksgiving.

December: Family. December 31st: The ink dries.

Lord, Thank you for the struggles, the challenges, and the opportunities. May I live up to the blessings you bestow upon me. Bless my family, my friends, and this amazing United States. May your will be done.


101: more than a number

She lived 101 years: Mary Elizabeth Borror, my grandmother, or more familiarly, Mimi.

David brought her breakfast, and she was as chipper and witty as ever. Her half-eaten oatmeal was all that was left as he returned to find her at 10:50am peacefully at rest.

Although one is never ready for someone to pass, she really was ready to go. There were no loose ends as she saw all of our family was happy and “working together.” She could leave knowing we would all be OK on this earth until we meet her; she gets to be with Jesus early!

What are some fine memories?

-lumpy cream of wheat eaten with my Snoopy spoon

-thin buttered cinnamon toast sliced in strips for ease of eating

-whipped orange juice made in the Oster blender for frothiness

-Lemon ice box dessert made especially non-dairy for me

-taking care of me during pneumonia/Marie Callendars veggie soup

-sewing my formal dresses and fitting me to a T

-Our sharing our love of poetry, pink and flowers

-EVERY painting she created I LOVED ( I was her biggest fan)

-butterfly heels for which I used to don around her house

-moving in with her when I needed her most; helping me financially

-I got to be her secretary when she was in the hospital.

There are a million more. I love you Mimi. Rest with ANGELS




Dog first; baby second?

The day I brought Tatum home, I had carefully prepared Coti, so I thought. Every night before Tatum’s arrival, we had our chats about what was about to take place. Did he listen? Was he even paying attention!!? Perhaps not. I brought home one of her little hats from the hospital and placed it in his doggie bed. He tossed it around and ignored the head covering. Then the next day, I brought a blanket and strategically put it in his favorite couch spot. Maybe this would do it. Fast forward to Tatum’s homecoming. He not only growled at her but almost bit her! We immediately freaked out and shielded him from her for a few days. Then, finally we just confronted the situation head on. When I fed Tatum, I played with Coti directly following. I had to go overboard to love on my dog.

It’s five weeks later, and he adores her! The minute she cries, he looks at me saying, “Hey, mom, what are you going to do about this!?” If only he could feed her and change her diapers. Maybe I can teach him to soothe her when she cries. Now, that would be the perfect world.

Sadly, it’s not perfect yet. He is going back to BOOT CAMP with dog training. Coti has been showing signs of aggression and elusiveness. It’s only natural; however, I really miss my old dog. I know this transition will take time.

The Red Sweater

Upon my doorstep, wrapped in holiday tissue paper, was an adorable Baby Gap red sweater. My dear friend Denise gifted Tatum with this special outfit for Christmas. Although it could fit two Tatums, it sure looked cute! She even posed for me.

Totally Tatum Time (TTT)

One month. One month and one week= FIVE WEEKS OLD. How is it possible that I have been home from work for 5 weeks and yet have not had time to blog about each morsel of moment I have experienced with Tatum? I now understand the value of time. Well, more like the value of uninterrupted time. Five minutes here and’s there, but the second I start to eat, sleep, pee, write…it’s Totally Tatum Time. (TTT!)

So, my new goal? Write at least ONE thing a day. Maybe it’s a DEEEEEP thought like, “Why does the milk clump when poured in after the formula is in the bottle?” or maybe it’s “How come my eyebrow hairs grow more now that I don’t pluck every day?” No matter…I’ll write. I must.

This time is precious with Tatum. She is beginning to coo and emote in ways I have never seen! As she observes what she cannot yet focus on, she is taking it in with wonder. I am soaking in every minute. The past two weeks supercede the previous two in terms of my sanity. She no longer has colic (prayerfully!), and her gas has subsided. The type of water, gas drops, formula brand…all together have been the answer. Well, and LOTS OF PRAYER!

My TTT becomes more precious everyday. I shall write. Yes, I must.



My Education Mission

Being a leader in the field of education means that I must begin with a missional attitude and a philosophy which has an upwardly focused worldview.  The development of this statement and my philosophy stems from a passion which has its roots in difficult life experiences and an early life without a relationship with God.  The beauty of my continued goal of staying focused and sometimes falling “forward,” is that I “KNOW for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28) This verse makes all the random broken pieces of my life make a beautiful mosaic for which I may not understand, but I can trust will make sense to Him.

Eight years ago I put together a leadership plan, and continuing to refine it and making it relevant is crucial. Therefore, I revisit this and make it useable for my upcoming school year.


Encourage everyone I face daily (Hebrews 10:24)

Endeavor to facilitate a lifelong love of learning (Luke 2:39-52)

Enrich others’ lives through my inspiration and experiences (1 Cor 1:26-31)

My Personal Philosophy

Every child has a light within. 

Every person is created in God’s image. 

God does not make junk. 

My personal philosophy of education is critical in how I approach guiding and leading children along the path of growth. Because my idea of the perfect teacher is one who inspires learning and critical thinking, and she also needs to impart the required essentials.  However, no fruit will blossom in the child if he/she doesn’t feel affirmed and loved. This means passion, tons of love, empathy, and grace is required of the teacher. Certainly, this is a monumental order for anyone in any profession on a daily basis. However, anyone considering this profession needs to realize that it is not just a job, but a life-giving ministry for which one must have a deep passion. Children are our future, and so the effort is worth it! Before I dive into my worldviews, however, which are personified in the classroom, I must give a background as to how they developed.

Growing up, I never thought I was being groomed for the teaching profession. Having a mother in the field and being encouraged to choose a lucrative career by both parents, prompted me to stick to a business degree. I went to business school and majored in marketing. I truly disliked the business world life because it created an internal emptiness, but I loved the marketing side because it dealt with people and their experiences.  This was the road I was on for almost ten years. What came from this was an evident maturity and the ability to critically think about real-life skills which I could not have received had I jumped right into the classroom. But, as previously mentioned, what also developed from ten years in the field of sales and marketing, was a lacking in my heart. Daily, I would come home exhausted and dissatisfied. Here I was increasing the company’s bottom-line and making a hefty paycheck as I “helped” people receive products they may or may not have needed. It was gratifying for a short time, and deep down I knew I was helping, but I was focused on the wrong output. During these barren years, I also was introduced to having a life with Christ, and I accepted Him as my personal Savior and the LORD of my life. I had no idea what this meant professionally, but I knew I needed to make changes from the input I received and the output I delivered in my daily life. As I transferred into the field of education, I found a deep desire to be a light for youths in the school system because these little “lights” are our future leaders. Had I not had these experiences, coupled with my new life in Christ, my educational philosophies would have been less real to me since I had not lived what I now truly believe.


In order to live my mission statement, I must be daily FILLED. Guiding these “mini-lights” requires a 100% commitment to Christ. Why? Because commitment is more than belief but ACTION upon that belief.  “A totally committed Christian is a person who confesses that, amidst the manifold and confusing voices heard in the world, there is one Voice which supremely wins his full assent, uniting all his powers, intellectual and emotional, into a single pattern of self-giving.” (23) Trueblood notes that the VOICE of Jesus Christ supersedes all other voices in one’s head, and once the Christian has made this primary commitment, although difficulties still exist, the person starts to know the joy of living for a larger purpose and his/her actions reflect such belief. This gives me wisdom, peace, and the ability to make it through those tough times. Since I am filled daily, I can be AVAILABLE to be a vessel of truth, wisdom, and guidance. As a teacher, the importance of my job continues to increase in areas of need. It is no longer about teaching students the three “R”s. It is so much more, and I need to be foundationally sound in order to remain a rock for these kids.


The beliefs I hold stem from the fact that I love learners, education, and the life of teaching. There exists an old adage, “They don’t care how much you know until they know how much you care.” Is this biblical? To make an analogy: Can a relationship with Christ be built without the knowledge that GOD truly loves me? “And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high,and how deep his love is.” (Eph 3:17-19) Since I am aware, now, I have to model this in my teaching and approach to kids. Education is about looking beyond the child’s intellect, and seeing the whole child. Education is about providing students with opportunities to be challenged and still succeed. The importance of personal relationships is the foundation for ethical conduct in the education field. Why is this so important? Again, learners learn in a caring environment. I went into teaching to care for people. What I get as a serendipity is successful students, not only academically, but relationally. Parker Palmer (1998) says that, “We teach who we are.” ( p.1) We teach people, not subjects. Every child that cannot find an adult to connect with in a school is a child we have failed, and every child we have given a meaningful relationship to is a success to be savored. Why is this so important especially now? For years now, the dismal issue is the removal of parents from the home. Many households are headed by a single parent or both parents are needed to supply salaries just to survive. Whatever the reason, for many hours each day there is unfortunately no one at home. Students are no longer arriving at school ready to learn the basics, or the three “R”s. This, in turn,  gives the teachers an extra role: To be nurturers.

MISSION 2: ENDEAVOR (Luke 2:39-52)

Part of my calling is the need to impart a love of learning. Jesus was a role-model in the love of learning and the gift of teaching. His passion for His ministry and His ability to impart wisdom is a role model for me. Sure, I need to teach English content, but more importantly, the plan God has set out for me is helping this next generation be passionate about what THEY love and passionate about the love of learning and growing. I am incomplete as a teacher if I am committed only to what I am teaching and not to my student as a WHOLE person.  The content I teach will mean nothing unless I can engage my students and help them see connections. Jesus always taught in parables to help the student make connections to his/her own life. In other words, he never just TOLD his disciples. He had the disciples critically examine the issue and apply it to his/her own life. This means it’s vital that my teaching allows the students HOW to think about the content, and not necessarily just give them answers.

Another skill Jesus used to help his disciples learn was story-telling. Patterning, or learning through narratives helps connections as well, and since most learners are visual, it gives the learning personal meaning. Dan Pink (2006), in his book, The Whole Mind, did massive studies on the brain and what skills are necessary for success. They are much different than they were back in the Agricultural and Industrial Ages where physical strength and endurance were key. Then, the Information Age called for linear, logical, analytical reasoning (left-brained skills). This age, he calls, “The Conceptual Age”, however, will demand right side invigoration, developing skills, such as creativity, empathy, and intuition.

MISSION 3: ENRICH (1 Cor 1:26-31)

Learners need to take ownership of their learning so they feel empowered. My influence on this is of the utmost importance, because I’m not only teaching students to be skilled in school, but in the ability to be a fruitful and character filled citizen. Certainly my growth in this area was due to God choosing “the weak things of the world to shame the strong.” (1 Cor 1:28) I cannot boast from how God has used me, but I can empower others to be individuals with my inspiration. God wants all to be so “no longer be children, tossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in deceitful schemes.” (Eph 4:14) He wants all of us to grow and be come wise in our thinking. One of the ways I do this is helping the kids with their power of the written word. I need students to see their value and to own their abilities. When they write, I can help them with their personal thoughts and passions which they have cemented on paper.  I also help students as they are partners in assessing of their work. Whatever it is, students feel empowered when they are part of the learning process. My goal is that my influence and experiences will help the students be more empowered to be stronger, wiser citizens and leaders for the future. Also, if they are empowered to be individuals and critically think, they are more apt to make wise choices without being influenced by a “group-think” or peer-pressured mentality.

Encourage…..Endeavor……Enrich…..These three embody my mission daily. I believe that all children possess a light within as they achieve their full potential following the educational path. They must be given the basics. It is my hope that, as I impart the knowledge needed, I will also manage to inspire and motivate my students to seek additional learning as well as the ability to think more critically.  Hopefully, also by showing them they are cared for, they can have fun in their own personal search. This is inevitably a challenge, but one that I look forward to every day.


Palmer, Parker (1998), The Courage to Teach. Jossey-Bass.

Pink, Dan (2006). A Whole New Mind. Riverhead Trade.

Trueblood, Elton (1961), The Company of the Committed. Harper and Row.